This is a blind item story so I won't mention any names :D
This is a story from a friend of mine which struck me when I learned about this.
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I had this experience when I just fell in-love with someone very special to me. We just known each other through the internet.
This person became so special that I can't help but fall. (oh my gosh) With just a simple talk with that person, through simple texts, I always feel happy when I'm with that person EVEN THOUGH we still haven't met in person. Through these simple talks, we became very close and I started sharing things to that person. I treated this person as my best friend although I don't think that he treats me as his best friend too but either way he's still my best friend who knows every single detail of my life.
That time I'm still confused about my feelings towards that person. It's like when I'm with that person, I'm always happy, I always want to talk to that person, and I feel that I can trust that person wholeheartedly.
Several weeks later, that person told me that he's already in a relationship and they're already together right before the time we became close. I have to admit that I kinda felt hurt that time but it didn't matter. I just told myself that as his best friend, I should be happy for him but in reality I'm hurt.
Envious of that relationship, I also entered in a relationship. I told that person about my relationship and it seems that he didn't like it and it kinda made me sad again.
He and his partner started to have problems. There came a time when he calls me up crying. By that time, it's like his day never ends without shedding a tear. Knowing about this, it made me mad on his partner. It's like I want to talk to his partner. Of course who wants to see their best friend hurt right? So I want to defend him from his partner.
As time passed by, he started to drift away from me. No more text messages, no more calls, as in nothing. From that time I started to miss him a lot. I started to become cold to my partner as well and later on I told my partner that I'm in-love with my best friend. I know that THAT confession of mine made my partner hurt and it made me kinda guilty but I can't keep going within a lie. I want to tell my partner about my best friend because it'll hurt him sooner or later, not only him but also me. So why prolong the gap? I thought that it's better to tell my partner about it already.
A day after my confession, somebody called me and guess who it was. It was my best friend's partner! At that time I told that person everything I wanted to say since I thought that it was as opportunity to do so. That person told me everything that happened but I still defended my best friend to the best of my extent even though I know that what he did is wrong. After a quite long argument between me and my best friend's partner, my best friend's partner told me to stay away from my best friend. That person told me that he really doesn't like me, that he was just using me, that he just sees me as a money tree and so on and so forth. But I never believed a single word that person said.
After that talk with that person, still there's no communication between me and my best friend. I tried to contact him sometimes but there's no reply. In addition to that, communication between me and my partner also started to drift away. I've learned that I've fallen deeply in-love with my best friend because I can't get him out of my head. That time I broke up with my partner and my reason for breaking up? I'm in love with my best friend and it's not working out between the two of us. How's that for a reason?
Time passed by and still no connection with him. Since I can't do anything to know how he's doing, I always look at his Friendster profile. It's like every single day I check his profile even though I can't see his full profile because his partner deleted me from his friend lists. I can't add him up again or message him. Nothing. All I can do that time is look at his prictures over and over again, pray for his safety and cry every night.
I really miss him so much.
Years go by and I'm still doing the same old routine again and again. I always wear a mask everytime I go out of my room. People see me as a same old jolly person with no worries in life. Little do they know, I'm carrying something heavy all these years. I never entered into another relationship again because I'm still hoping that my best friend would come back someday.
2 years passed. This is the time when Facebook started to become popular. I checked my Friendster account that time and I was surprised on what I saw. My best friend's partner added me up! Checking that person's profile, a thought popped up on my mind. I said to myself after seeing things on that person's profile "What they broke up?". It's like it's something that is very remote to happen but it really happened! By that time, I got my hopes up. I opened my Facebook account and searched his name and it appeared! I was like, " Oh my gosh!". I was trembling that time. I was very hesitant to add him up. But I stayed strong and added him up. I was very happy when he accepted my friend request. I kept my head held high when I talked to him but it seems like he didn't missed me. I was kinda disappointed but I didn't mind what I felt as long as he's back I'm happy.
Again I lurked on his profile, I learned that he's in another relationship again. But it didn't matter to me. We became close again when he added me up on his yahoo messenger. We talked and talked like there's no tomorrow. Text messages and calls with him returned. Just like the old times!
I'm so happy that he's back!
Several months passed by in a breeze and things started to drift away again. His text messages seldom comes and he doesn't answer my calls anymore. I was getting kind of scared that I might lose him again. Every night I cried just thinking that he'll leave me for the second time.
Then there came a time when he talked to me about something. He told me that he's in love with another besides his current partner. I became frank to him and told him everything that I'm feeling. I told him that I'm hurt, that what he feels towards that person is the same way of what I feel towards him. But I set my pride aside and did my part as his best friend. I tried my best to comfort him but it seems he's not comforted.
Now we seldom talk again but I know that he's always around unlike before. But still, I'm crying at night. I'm feel that he's taken me for granted because I know that he knows that I love him. But I try to set aside my negative thoughts as hard as I can and keep convincing myself that he didn't took me for granted.
Even though he's just around the corner, he still seems so far away from me but I'm still hoping. I'm back to the same old routine I had when he left me before. But I still stand strong and keep my word that as his best friend, I'll always be here for him whenever he needs me.
And now as I stand on my own, once again, I still give my love to him even if I know that he'll never do the same thing for me.
Why do I hold on to someone who has nothing to offer?
Simple..It's because I love him.
Now tell me.
Is this true love or am I just obsessed?
If you feel that you're love is strong enough to hold on to your partner, think again because if there is more doubt than trust, your feelings is very weak and may crash anytime soon.